e one w rltnshp

stayd at home e whole day. no one called to meet. im bored. now i wish sch had not close. (yes. luff) at least i hv smthg to do. e past few days, its either i sit at home or mrayap. n its always w hunns, yana babe & khairul. no, im not complaing. im thankful. i wanna work! evryday kind of job u noe. no more hotel banquet. tired la like tt. any reccomendatns?

life have not been fair to me. i wont say i hv probs. i brough tis to myself. to b more exact, im e prob. i deserved it la. for those who noe, u noe. sorry oma, sorry baba. wil try to behave ok. insyaAllah i wil achieve wat u guys dream of ok. i wil make u guys proud. one day, eventually.

family aside. lets tok abt hunns. our rltnshp too has not been perfect. i just feel tt we r no longer crazy abt each otha anymo. i m, totally m. we quarrel most of e time. i dun like. i noe u dun too but.. we've drifted. so far apart from each otha. yes, we do spent time w each otha. but i dno if its quality time. how do i let out all these feelgs eh? i tried talkg to him just now. he did say sorry but i dun need tt. i need chgs. yes. mmg manusia gtu. tk pnah cukop dgn apa yg ade. hais..

im sad. blardy sad. im feelg pathetic, useless n worthless. mayb hunns deserve smone betta? ive always tot abt tis. im not smart, im not family-oriented. im not PERFECT. hais.. how wud u like it if ur bf says tis abt his ex? of course minus all e NOTs la. blearghhh.

im tired. i cried thkg abt all these. im not sayg im not happy. in fact, ive nv felt happier bfore. ive nv regret knowg him. ya Allah.. y m i feelg all these? tk suka. tk suka. benci!!