e one with pool

yet agn. i din hv fun in sch. well, wats new. pple succeed in making my life miserable. congrats. went to tis buildg behind IMM n took my SE K610i hp. at last. e wait is finally over. e not fun part was tt i had to pay $94.50.

i told hunns abt wat happ n he askd to meet aft he finishd sch. cos i wantd to go out alone at first. so he just accompany me. i actually plannd to go home, wash up n bath, take my lappy along w me n sit dwn n do roleplay. since hunns offered to, y not rite.

i waited at KAP Mac til 6. he was supposd to finish sch at 5. so i waited for 2 hrs. n den e lappy batt got flat n most of e plug sockets were used. so.. i went to Cold Storage n walkd arnd. den he came. i was hungry. reli hungry. head to Al-Azhar n had kway teow hong kong. hunns had roti prata plaster n tissue. i wad reli pissed at him cos he used e term ape je. sunggoh tk favourite. n also he wasnt payg attn at my stories. aiyah.. tt was always e case. brr..

he wantd to b bck by 9 cos he had to study for his ppr tmr. i fear for him. i dno y. i wantd to go home but he insisted on stayg. n so we stand at e bustop thkg whr to go. finally, playd pool. hahaks. it has been a long time tt we wanted to play pool tgthr. but der was always xcuses.

i won e 1st, 2nd n 4th game. he, e 4rd game. so it was 3-1 initially. but he beat me to 5-3. mine score remained at 3 n his from 1 to 5. hahaks. well hunns, i gav u alot of chances. tts y. blueks. stil, i dno y but i dun like hunns at pool. very stern n boring. of course u hv to play it seriously but like no joke no fun la. dno ehs. mayb he's tired. (fwahh. ainee sooo ustdg. RITE.)

we finishd e last set at 9.30 den head home. took 75, send him home. i got nthg betta to do. n guesd wat i did. hahaks. i walkd frm from BP lrt stn. it was quite near la. mayb bcos ders alot of thgs gg on in my mind. i dno. my surroundg has chgd. to no good. family, frens n even u hunns. i dno if tis is for e betta or worse. ahh.. wateva. im leavg evrythg to fate. too tired to do anythg anymo. just finish wateva i hv to do n tts it.

i hope to meet mamet evry single day. hahaks. if only i cud. i'll b e happiest gal in e world. yes, seriously. n yes. i want to meet tis pple : Rose, Lydia, Hajar, Lia, Aepul, Nazrul, Sufian, Yana, Becky. i miss u guys loadsss la! beep me pls. i love u all. n u mamet.

e one with being ustdg

i hv nthg to do. so i blog.

totally pissed. was supposed to meet hunns aft his gym. i wanted e Microsoft CD-Rom. he said to meet at 5. n baba came bck early ystd. so i went to first. sat alone at void-deck. i msgd him but he din rply. i reminded him to msg bfore he go gym. so i just sat n waited. at 6, he txt me sayg, "sori2. kita aru abis gym ni. sori byk2. kita tired gler. i pass e cd to a an k."

fwahhh. frustated. i packed my stufs n head home. i din msg him. cant b bothered to say anythg anymo. i went back n slp. msg a'an abt e CD. said he'll b coming. (yea, now he's here at my hse watchg dvds.)

der was 3 discs. n im no pro in all these computer stufs. so i col him to ask. he said e 3rd need not install.

n he's not in a gd mood. some family matters. love him too much tt i put aside my anger. n im worried cos he hvnt ask me to col. sighs.

amie hunney. i will b here if u need me orites. rmbr tis. i love u. *winks*

PS: i'll adress him as hunns or mamet e nx time i blog ok.

e one with speak easy

these r pictures from e Speak Easy we went to at SAM. njoys!

e one with too many

woahh. been so bz w evrythg. had no time to blog. basically wateva happend in otha pple's lyf happend in mine too. hahaks. soo lazy to blog. well, thgs r stil e same in sch. but im closer w cassie, jesslyn, ambika. =)) soo nice. since dey held e Imran's event. it was nice. a big fan of his bro, sharif. well he has a cute face and a nice voice. almost all wen gaga over him. i do!

n den der was my first time to Speak Easy. tis evry mth thg at e Singapore Arts Museum. organised by Imran. it was fun. well e first part was boring cos i dun reli ustd wat dey were rapping abt. ouh yes der was me, wanee, wanie, leah, nisah, ain n mas. i njoyed myself althou it was e first time gg out w dem. we had a great luff. we cam-whored. we look like superstarrr. it was like our show. RITE! i shall not go into details abt wat happend tt nite cos it was sooo long ago. den i met amie. he waited for almost 1 hr. sori dear. well thgs hvnt been good for us either. but we stil managed n carried on. im glad ders thgs called chances.

(n while im blogging. buttcheek is gg, meooooww. he's bored. no one to play w. oma wen to e mosque. apongs n embas aslp. e rest, out.)

wat else. umm.. happy for flauntiqs tt their event is over. so in my class now, left mine, fid's dewei's grp. so we hv met our SANA speaker. i love tt evrythg is almost done. n i did played my part. rite from e start. ETP stil lags. i hv roleplay stil. hmm. so mafan. sch aside. i dun reli njoy it anymo. fish.

din attend sch on fri. wasnt feelg tt well. went to Queenstown to take MC. amie too. hahaks. n we spend e whole day out. from like 9am til 4am? nearly 24hrs. crazee. ton ltr at nite at cck. w aj n a'an cuzzie. n we played poker. n whoeva lose has to drink kumquat which was personalise by aj. he put salt in e drink. eeeeeeeeeeeewww. but it was fun seeing each reactions aft drinkg it. had a fun time. thx hor hunns. for accompanyg me thru e nite.

n so we meet agn on sat. tis time w aj, a'an n kang. tis time to Esplanade. i din njoy myself. but for a gd reason. amie was jealous cos i said tis 2 guys cute. heex. i noe u love me~. i do too. well hunns, ure e cutest of dem all ok. e berg one. hahas. even aft e botak hair. lols.

went to IMM w oma, baba n kakda ystd. yeays. baba bought me lappy. *smiles bigg* ate at BAGUS. some sort like Banquet. den head home.

i dun look fwd to sch tdy. in fact, veryy lazy. can i skip agn? haha. but must go doc. but only got evm. hmmm.. on e 31st got event presentatn. i hate presentatn. but i thk it'll b ok. k, now im gg to bath n buttcheek is finally aslp aft biting my hand. its painful but i love him. so, doesnt matter.

PS: check out www.myspace.com/beatssociety
look under their events.
FANGELS event is under it.
scoolness. whee..!

e one with the balcony

i lo0k fat dun i...??!

mine n kakyan's

i lo0k fatter here!!

it was Sat n it was my first visit to The Balcony. w kakyan n frens. met her up at t0wn.. tt was arnd 10.30? it was her fren's bday. ainun n dianah. b0th turned 23 tis yr. hahaks. n kakyan t0o in 7 mths. 0ld lia0! s0 i ate baked penne. s0o n0t nice! n e plc was awes0me. i l0ike. shd hang 0ut der 0ften but its damn xpensive la e drinks. but they hv co0l m0ktails n c0cktail, magaritas. n dey hv styl0 names. cdnt recall. will go der n drink wen i hv big bux. n0t at e m0ment.



im saving. i wish t0 g0 0n a h0liday. n i hv my dues t0 pay. i wish i was stil 16 wen baba paid f0r evrythg. geez..



n yea. i dn0 wats up w me. im hvg pr0bs i gues? wat exactly i dn0. n im s0o n0t e kind t0 sit d0wn n s0lve thgs. i'll run. run as far as i can. im so selfish. so unrsnable. ya Allah. i thk 0nly f0r myself..



pls. if i hv 0ffended any0ne. im terribly s0ri. i n0e i shd speak up. instd i just kept quiet as if nthg happ. im embarresed by my mistakes. i dn0 h0w t0 face u pple.



i wanna quit. i wanna gv up. i find n0 meang in life anym0. babes g0ne. he's g0ne. eurghhh!!!!

e one with photos

e cheeky cheeky lydia.

memettt!!!

e 0ne wh0 makes my heart beat faster

makes me cry n laugh at e same time.

outside zouk.

red red nails..

1st day of sch

cam-whoring..

being us.

fringe!!!

we gonna parrrrty..!

she loves me more den french fries.
buy me tis dress.

myself n kakyan.

it has been a long time. e best best best best fren.

e one with new term

hello. haha. in sch rite now. its been 2 days since sch re0pen. evrythgs like n0rmal. xcept f0r sm0ne. aiyah.. dn0 la. my c0nscience is clear. i n0e i did smthg wr0ng. but f0r a reason..

anyho0s, went t0 t0wn ystd. w amie, r0s n lydia. it has been smtime since i last went out w r0s. acc0mpany her g0 sh0ppg. supp0sedly meet bdk² furama. g0 play po0l. but ders sm0ne b0th me n r0s dun like. s0o, nahh. we had fun! but i n0e i wasnt in my bestest mo0d. even amie says s0. i became r0s' fashi0n advis0r. haha. h0w co0l is tt! she needs e street-wear style. randi wants her t0 dress like tt. we went 0rchard first. c0s i wanted t0 eat pretzel n br0wnie. hee hee. munch! munch! munch!

well im s0o glad tt amie n r0s cud click. yey! at last. one of my gfs. we den head t0 bugis. tts whr she b0ught al0ttt 0f thgs. i l0ike tis red dress. aiyahh..! i want. but it c0st 59 bux! 0h. 0h. e 0ne at cine. tts 40 bux. b0th dress very very nice. i want can? wh0 wants t0 buy f0r me? i'll post pics ltr k. we head h0me arnd 10 plus? n i was in e l0west mo0d. sucky sucky attitude. we to0k 960. amie went h0me straight. i walked r0s t0 her crib den head h0me.

i felt suckier wen ive rchd h0me. mayb c0s 0ma blabbers t0o much! eeurgh.. n i t0ld amie tt i want t0 gv up. 0n evrythg. i just cdnt take it uh. w life. w my life.

n yea. fa, if ure readg tis. gd. i cant take it. i dun get it y u refuse t0 t0k t0 me. pls, d0 get angry. d0 sc0ld me 0r anythg. i'll accept all tt uh. but y t0 tis xtreme eh? y ign0re me. its n0t e same anym0. schs n0t fun anym0. i just cant g0 on w u like tis. i n0e im at fault. s0ri. s0ri. s0ri. n i'll repeat. its n0t as if i did tt 0n purp0se. i hv my reas0ns!! sighs. i dn0 h0w l0ng tis wil g0 0n. but im h0ping all these wil end so0n. pls. wat d0 u want me t0 d0 t0 make it up t0 u? tel me uh. pay back e m0ney u spent? fine, i will. 0ne thg u hv t0 n0e, i went thru hell tt day. ustd uh. wil tel u wen im, 0k w evrythg. c0s n0w, i want t0 erase wateva happ on tt wkend. u thk it thru. e rest is up t0 u. d0ne.

e one with resolutions

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA n HAPPY NEW YEAR.

its 2007 n0w. al0t has happ in 2006. o0o i s0o dun want t0 rmbr. i hv new yr res0luti0ns. n i shall pray tt im able t0 d0 it. i wish t0 erase all mem0ries 0f e past. start new chapters in my life. *HELP* i wanna b a go0d daughter. a go0d sister. a go0d fren. a go0d c0usin. a go0d niece. a go0d student. a go0d w0rker. a go0d gf. haha. rite. i shall d0 my laundry evry wkend. hang cl0thes aft using dem. make sure my bed is clean evry m0rng. clean my ro0m. n m0re stufs like tt. i wish t0 b sm0ne str0nger. sm0ne wh0 is n0t sensitive. i can take any j0kes 0r bullies. i wish t0 excel in my studies. make my parents pr0ud. enr0l my car license. w0ahh. ders s0o many thgs i wanna d0. lets all h0pe tt i can acc0mplish dem. *prays*

stil, im tied dwn by pr0jects. hell l0ads 0f pr0jects. ETP, EVM. my oral presentatn, r0leplay. i stil hv t0 study f0r EVM. wen sch re0pens, we'll hv exam. fish! tts like only 8 m0re days t0 g0. o'0h. i dun wanna fl0p. i wanna d0 well. in all areas. *Amin* i wanna b a betta pers0n.

n i stil hv pr0bs t0 thk abt. can all these disappear. i dun want any pr0bs in my life. its n0t a nice feelg t0 get hurt. well ive been cryg f0r e past few days. n im gg t0 t0nite. l0ve cud hurt s0o much. its like piercing ur heart w arr0ws. like sm0ne grab my heart n just pull it 0ut. i dn0 h0w t0 describe e pain. its t0o painful. but i believe tt one wh0 waits will gain m0re than xpected in e end. even if i hv t0 g0 thru all these. im nv gg t0 gv up.]

hurt me m0re. mayb tt wil help me hate u. 0r even increase my l0ve f0r u each n evry day. i dn0.its all up t0 u. i reli dn0 wat else t0 b d0ne. i l0ve u b0tak.