the one w sch stufs

so ive sent my appeal letter to sit for BCM ppr. sally talkd some sense into my head. so im stil schlg. did tot of quitg. y? cos of some pple who dun appreciate me. i find it stuuupid la. i stil hv sooo many otha pple who wants to befren me. y stick to e 2 of dem eh? so wat if pple wil tok. i stil dun get it. just bcos of 1 mistake. ONE stupid mistake. n dey do tis? pls, thk. wen u were at Bugis, alone, i came dwn rushg. i took a cab. how many times actually hv i did tt? but stil pple dun appreciate. these arent wat we call frens. dey actually abandoned e fact tt once we were sooo close, like sistas. n just bcos of not showg up, u hv to outcast pple? pls. grow up.

so b it if pple want to tok. i just want to concerntrate. finish another yr n get out of e sch. i dun wish to even rmbr these pple once exist in my lyf. fyi, tis is how much i hate dem. cos dey made my lyf miserable. eurghh.. i believe in KARMA. so b it. wat goes arnd, comes arnd. so it'll surely happen to u pple. im glad all these happ. now i noe e otha sides of pple. how mean dey can b. fcuk la. i dun need tt.

n thx cassie, ambika, xiu zhen, jeslyn for tdy. i reli appreciate it u guys. n mel, we'll push each otha to go to sch ok. we'll b der for each otha. n we hv to do our roleplay tis wed. i hope e best for us both. i love u all la bebeh.

i want to make my baba n oma proud. tts all im workg twds now. e othas, TOLAK TEPI SUAA.

done.

the one w "fishing"

we wanted to go out. like, reli e both of us to smwhr we can spend time tgthr n njoy ourselves. i wanted to go e zoo. but its 15 bux. expensive la. so hunns suggested we go fishg at labrador park. so i met him at bp intchg. it was both our 1st time der. he checkd tt 176 passed by der. confident! end up at b.merah.. its like deserted. cos of CNY. eurghh. hate tis time of e yr. den all e shops wil b closed. ouh yes, hunns was lookg for prawns, bait for fishg. but no pasar, no shops was opened. cant b askg MacD n LJS rite? both of us got hungry n ate at KFC. lols. i ate bandito. believe it. yes, i do feel like puking wen im inside e plc. eeewww..!

so we walkd to a petrol stn. hunns was hoping dey wud sell prawns. tried our luck but i end up buyg asam masin. nice! nenek used to live at redhill so i kinda noe e plc. n den we walked to e mrt. it was a long walk ok. not yet startd fishg but it was alrd 6 plus. den sat at mrt, both dno whr to go. hunn w his fishg rod. i with sluar pendek. end up go ECP. lols. n we actually walked back to b.merah cos ders a straight bus which goes der. wahlandeuyyy!!

rch ECP den meet a'an cuzzie, aj, kang n archik. dey from archik's chalet. we wanted to sit at e jetty but it was too far. archik had to go off cos he had to send his uncle. so hunns askd him to bring along prawns. obviously chalet got raw food rite. while waitg, dey playd poker while i tahan kencing. lols. wen archik returns, he din bring along anythg. hunns was disappointd i noe. den we went to 7-11. he die2 want to fish n so we bought crab-stick to act as e bait. funny la lu mat. ouh yes! we actually go arnd hawker ctrs n askd dem if dey hv raw prawns. tt was funny.

at arnd 12 plus i thk, e rest went off. we stayd to fish. just for e fun of it. lols. we just sat down n did nthg. n den hunns suggest tt we drink. so we went to tis bar which was closed, pull chairs, on e fan n startd drinkg. we were soooo drunk la. n we did smthg stuupid. reli stuupid. but wat its worth, it was w mamett. *smiles* hunns fell a couple of time. i vomitted.

at 7 we went off, took 196 to clmt n went our separate ways. hunns took 184. i planned to take 188. n gues wat. my ezlink no more $. n hv no more $. n i walked home. from clmt to cck. whee..! it was fun.. all drunk n tired. nx walk, from ECP to CCK. wanna join..?

e one w babes

went to yana's crib. so she cooked for both of us. agn, we mug tgthr. n we dismantle her dad's dvd player. ders a broken disc inside n we sooo wanna karaoke. n wen we managed to get e disc out, e sound of e mic cdnt function. yana calld her dad n askd lots of times abt it. finally, cik sayali came home. especially for us. ouh yes, lia babe joined too. at last! i met her..! it has been mths. e last time was raya. actually MOS but tts not proper. so we sang our hearts out. we njoyd ourselves. i recalld those times during my sec sch wen we always hang out at ros' crib n karaoke. sooo nice! i miss being 16!!

at e same time, i hv to meet hunns. to chg e colour of his watch. i bought turqoise for him. e prefer e white one. but i feel bad la to leave yana like tt. so i told hunns to meet me at cck instd. n he got angry. but eventually we met at town. so ders me, lia, yana, khairul. hunns was w aj n kang. ltr, aepul joined. we ate at LJS cine.

i hate wen he left me to go riding w his frens. eurghhh. i merajok la. n den e rest of us slack at taka. we playd truth or dare, poker. it was fun. n aepul n khairul kissed! hahaks. we den walk out arnd 2 plus n took NR3. i slpt at yana's crib til she went to work. n den i head home. n im stil angry at mamet. for leavg me! *cries*

nvm, lets c e photos.

the one w Valentines' Day

the rose n card
e fake flower i gave him.
posing w our gifts.
agn, we posed.
being us..

candid shots.

jejaka melayu terakhir. LOLS.

posing w his flower.

we watched Epic Movie at Marina Sq. it was a 6.30 show. we stil hv time so we snap, snap n snap. ouh yes, he made me wait for him at cck lrt den he surprised me by gving me e e rose n card. *smiles*


then we ate at 2 Hot Halal. i ordered mango fizzy drink wsambal fish rice. he ordered raspberry drink i thk. w spaghetti. hahaks. n my food was betta den his. sorrie deary.

ouh yes, ders tis heart-shaped spotlight at Esplanade. i find it cool. so we took pics of it. whee.. i loike.

e best Valentines' Day i must say. reli njoyd myself. n i got flower! yeays. althou its not sunflower or daisy. hee.. n a veryy meaningful card w poem written by hunns himself. so we watch epic movie. funny story. den we had dinner at 2 hot halal at Esplanade. den sat by e bay. open our gifts n njoyd e scenery. we sat dwn smwhr near e oriental til 3am i thk. den took cab home. agn, my day filled w love n happines. seriously, whenever im w him, im smiling. else, i'll be sulkg.

I LOVE U LA MAMET HUNNEY!

e one w bugis

met hunns. he accompany me meet doc. i got gastric flu. surprised actually. hahaks. den we head to Bugis cos i want to eat fried fish soup. whee..! its been a long time. ouh yes, der, we fought. cos both mentioned abt e MOS incident. den both binget sndri. stuuupid. den i walked away. cos no plans. i din want to go home. i want to spend time w him. so i called him, askd whr he was. we talkd thgs out n its back to normal.

walkd arnd Bugis Street. i bought a black top. hee.. while walkg, i held his hand yet he kept pullg it. i dno y. i merely askd him y. but we ended up quarreling. fcukg pissed off. den he said abt me always mrajok. he said it harsh. n i hv flashbacks. its like e same. hais..

n so i told myself if i want thgs to work, i hv to chg. i hv to thk differently. so i acted ok n just forget abt evrythg. i want happy moments. no quarrels. so we continued walkg arnd bugis n den to west coast park. jauh kn kita tercampak. hahaks. we bought MacD prosperity meals, sat down n eat. e plc blarrrdy spooky. i din thk of it at 1st. but hunns eyes veryy gatal n kept lookg arnd. we went off at 11 plus. took cab home.

meetg him agn tmr. Valentine's Day. yeays...!

*buying him tis..

e one w ECP

( the pics r not in order. ouh whaddahell.)

i had fun..! best. best. best. we met at arnd 6. den hailed a cab n went to ECP. rch abt 7 plus..? n yea.. ders Burger King now at ECP. k, im not updated. wateva.. we went to our normal spot n pitch e tent. we played poker, munch n look at e stars. soon aft, kang called hunns n askd if he cud join. w a'an cuzzie, aj, his gf n kid. we kirim burger frm MacD. hungry gilerr.

we did nthg much. sing, sing n sing. no fites. *glad* we took pictures..! not many cos both looked shagged. soon it was 7 n we head home. bought nasi lemak at tis mama shop n ate on e bus. heex. althou it was nthg special, i njoyd it veryy much hunns. thankiu.

tmr sch. aiyer.. dun want to go can? we'll c.

the one w e deals

n so we met at e deal table. its just behind my blk. at 1st der was nthg much to talk abt. i askd y he lied. n mamet said he was disappointd to c me drunk. mamet dislike me gg clubbg. both of us wanted to gv up on tis rltnshp. but ders smthg holdg us bck n i believe its called LOVE?

so we sat down. both thkg of either we shd carry on or gv up. n so we both came to an agreement whr both of us cannot club or drink. unless we r gg to do it tgthr. n of course i continued smoke-free n he drug-free. so we kiss n make up. went to Lot 1 as both of us were hungry. n gues who we saw wen we were abt to leave Food Culture..? OMA n KAKYAN! like, damn! finally, oma saw mamet. he salam her n we went to McDonalds to meet aj n his gf. we just sat dwn n talk. he did tot of gg to ECP n overnite. but it was too sudden so we'll go on Sat.

at 11 plus he sent me home. hais.. im glad. reli glad ders tis thg called CHANCES. i love u la hunns.

e one w MOS

( pictures taken in O Bar in yana babe.)




i wanted to meet mamet e whole day. he said aft gym. i waited. n den he said he's tired n wanted to go home. like blardy hell. so im ok w it. went out w yana babe at nite. n gues who i saw at Liang Court's 7-11? MAMET. w a'an cuzzie n aj. like clearly dey gg MOS rite? fcukg angry la. he lied!! so i went to O Bar w yana. drank 5 shots n 2 screwdrivers. den to MOS. i saw a couple of familiar faces. lya babe, aepul, rasul, leah, ai, sufi, n Furama peeps. best!

i saw mamet e 1st time n din bother to do anythg cos i was angry. den i spend an hr in e toilet vomittg. yana was pissed i noe. sori bebs. ouh yes, i did vomit at e bar n also tis hole against e wall. hahaks. stuupid. den i saw him agn for e 2nd time. tis time i followed him til outside. i din say a word cos my head was stil heavy. i rmbrd him punchg e railg cos he was angry. den n complaind to aj n cried. den dey walked off. i knew i borrowd smone hp but cdnt rmbr who he was. lols.

den yana came out, pulled me bck in. tts wen i reli parrrrty. i dance my heart out. even if it was a stuuupid song. i tried not smsing him e whole day. n i just did. told him to meet me tmr aft his ppr. we need to talk.

hais. we'll just c how thgs go.

the one w events

getting ready..

fangels w beats society artiste

opening performance
miss anna thanam doing her presentatn our crowd

cassie deary n me

finally, our event is over. Alhamdulillah. we hv yet to thank Ms Anna Thanam n Mr Mohd Nor from SANA. Imran, Syarif, Naufal, Aiman from Beats Society n of course Flauntiqs n Soul of Teens. n Cassie for helpg us take pics. manyy thx to all of u. n also FANGELS. for makg evrythg a success. whee..! now we're left w de-brief report for EVM. ETP's proposal n BCM's roleplay. exams on 12 n 13 march. 2 pprs n den.. hooooray!! i'll work my ass off den.

tts abt all i gues. ders another part. later.

e one w projs n mamet

i cant slp. so decide to blog. its 5am in e morng. hvnt been blogging. too bz w projects. both EVM n ETP. on fri, moi calld n said tt all e file in her thumbdrive is gone. thus we need to re-type n print. so met her at her aunt's crib at 5 i thk. til 7.30. we went to Pioneer Mall. hahaks. it was my first time der. n den went to moi's crib. we wrapped e gifts n rolled e feedback form tgthr w e program sheet. most of it was done. sooo hapi.

i sat at home e whole day on SATURDAY. believe it. i occupy my time tying our EVM goodies tgthr. effort la. well, it looks nice to me. n smone called to spoil my day. i called mamet to complain eventhou im stil not on talkg terms w him. i cried la. den i msgd him sayg tt i need him. he promised to meet aft he went out w his frens.

oh well wats new. he din. hais.. i was alrd at 7-11 actually. waitg for him to txt me. n den i calld him. w his mabok voice, he said he was stil at Esplanade n der wasnt any train or bus left. fucked up. i was reli angry but i try my best to b ok w it. i hang up n cry.

just now Fangels n Mel meet up. for ETP. we hv to present our Fondue Bar to mr tong on tues. so we met to do e slides tgthr. i had a good luff althou it wasnt e same. hais.. wateva laaa.. ETP is almost done. but im worried for our event. n i stil hv no idea wat to wear. nvm.

n yes i met mamet. in spite of how angry i was. i put it all away. wasnt tt being mature? i dno. we had fun laa at first. luff, luff n more luffs. but nthg last foreva ehs? he tried to carried me. den he say "asl berat nih? eeeeii.. binatang" how m i supposed to feel? i din want to spoil e moment so i ignored la. n den i said smthg la, i was bein sarcastic to him. n to thk he can repeat e binatang thg. fwahhh.. was it wrong for me to get angry? i kept quiet aft tt. no more jokes. nthg. we were like two separate pple, walkg. den i askd, "best? meet den mcm gni?" he ans, "u shd noe e ans to tt qn wat" n so i gav up. y shd i tok abt all tis thgs wen he cdnt gv a damn abt it? sheesh.

i dun wish to mention e last part. i walked home agn. alot of stuupid tots run thru my mind. he said he wasnt ready for a serious rltnshp. i wonder, arent we in one? or is tis just a fling? he likes e way thgs r rite now? well, i dun. hv been playg ur game all these while. i quit. i just cant take it anymo. ive always tot of tis; mayb if it was his ex, he'll treat her differently. well, im not her. she's perfect.

well hunns, mayb its game over for me n u.

e one with ja n ical

my jaja bing darla. n her babyy ical.

i like his face in tis pic. cute nk mampos.

tis pic isnt tdy. its in ja's hp. n its cute. taken during raya 06. babies in love. lols.

i cant slp. time check - 2:18 am. hais. ive been cryg. song currently playg - by imran ajmain. ghaibmu n seribu tahun. i want compromise n hanya menari. yana say im gg googoogaagaa over him. hahaks. mayb? his songs la actually. very nice. superb local talent. no doubts. i cant believe im praising him, reli. cos i hate his sudah tu sudah song. until i heard e remix he did at Singapura Live w Sleeq.

k, enuf abt tt. lets blog abt wat happ.

i met jaja bing. yeys. w ical. c photos above kays. went to her crib. waited for her to get ready. den to bp plaza. we ate at Mac. ical sooo cute la. very smart. hahaks.

i was supposed to hv fun w mamet. but shit happens eh? we quarrel. lets c. i was easily pissed just now. cos im sooo hungry. no energy. u noe wen ure hungry n u hv to mood to joke? my fault was tt i din tel him my situation. so evry joke he made, i took it to heart. while we were walkg to e bustop, he joked. i got angry n said i wanted to go home. (ouh yes, we planned to go bp plaza to meet a'an cuzzie n aj) i did mean it at first la. but he consoled n i was ok. n at e bustop agn, i joked abt wantg to go home. i smiled aft tt. 985 came, a bus which goes to cck. i let it passed n said to him i'll wait for him to go. actually, i wanted him to force me to go. like make me feel he wants to spend time w me n want me to b der arnd him 24/7. ummm.. ustd? but went 75 came, he asked, "balek kn?" i said yes n he walked off, boarded e bus n left me alone. sighs.

i wanted to ignore. but i was reli disappointed la. n so i msged.

me: cant believe u jln. hais.. thx.
he: eh, pls la. dun play dis game wif me. awk nk alek pe

me: kita aksen majok. wat game eh? alaa.. tkpela. tima kasih la byk2.
he: aksen? haha.. abe awk ingat kite tk majok uh? tetibe ckp nk alek.. sukehati k. kite siang2 da ckp, 'jom lepak mac.' wateva k ainee. i dunno wats wrong wif u.
me: y do u thk i din take e 985? papela syamiel. its just e way u treat me.nvmla. cant believe u did tt.
he: n u make sure alek eh.. u said so rite.
he: ye ok... its me! ok. remember, its me. tk cr. n u better go home.
me: y do u care. u left like tt. thx

he: ouu.. its like dat eh? we'll c k.. we'll c..
me: awak nk tau benda, i spend my last 10 bux to b der w u. tk kisah uh tk mkn. n yet i get tis frm u? i put u priority in evrythg uh syamiel.. yet im only an option. i had enuf la. e way e treat me. we'll c? ahh.. tgh uh nnt.
me: thk uh. kita nk balek cpat? my dads at home. tkpe uh. lepas satu, satu buat kita gni. kita mmg tkda prasan nya org. thx uh syamiel. ive seen how much u love me.
he: abe ape? ungkit? eh tlg la. i said wat? jgn naek cab. sukehati awk k. kite kt sini, tknk awk alek, n awk skg ckp mcm gini. kita tk UNDERSTAND awak!!!
me: ungkit? shows hw impt u r to me. papela. bye.
he: Ya Allah.. awk tu yg tk notice. tink la. y i even ask u cum my sch, siak.. eh, dahlah ainee. awk 20 tis yr, accept it. tink maturely la..

n den i stop msging him. just bfore tis, i left him a message at friendster. sighs.

da. im not done cryg.