e one w evrythg

friday - cdnt wake up in e morning. so i decided to go to e 11 am clas. left home, msgd jess & askd. she said e clas is cancelld & ders a talk which ends at 12. so i decided not to go at all. hahas. msgd hunns & askd him to accompany me. wantd to go home but ltr oma petpotpetpot. so we went to WestMall & watchd Cadaver. we wantd to waste time as hunns clas starts at 3. its a ghost story & gues wat. no one was in e theatre. NO ONE at all. so we took advantage of e sofa seat which was 32 bux n we paid 16 bux! it was scary ok. we closed our eyes most of e time. 10 mins left to e end of e show, a lady workg der came in a shoo us off e sofa seat. well, wth. i den head home & hunns off to sch.

the only shot i got to take hunns playg e pool, kang malu2 nk amek gmbr. veryy e menyampah. a'an cuzzie bz playg his psp.
i took his pics den he took mine.& den i switch plc to take photo tgthr. =)

saturday was simple yet veryy nice. no hunns din go to work cos he cdnt wake up. & no we din go town nor esplanade. i went to gr mall & ate laksa. yum! yum! & den we waited for a'an cuzzie & kang & den head to pool at Beauty World. we played billard at first cos der wasnt any 8-feet pool table. my 1st time ok. & it was bad aft all. at least i got 3 of e red ball in. eh hunns! lols! we den got our 8-feet & i din play. cos i was havg stomach cramps. menses la deyy. den to MacD cos hunns was hungry. i rchd home bfore 12. believe it. its a saturday. hahas. but it feels nice to b home early. mcm anak yg baikkkk gtu.

went to lot 1 w kakyan tdy. to return dvds & den shop at NTUC. i personally love shoppg at NTUC. hahas. Sunday is family day for me. watched The Dancefloor, ate sotong balls. sooo nice. & den baba nagged abt how untidy my room is. nyeah. cant b bothered. so Vas & Pris won. it was obvious wasnt it? 50 grand seyy! nyeahh..!

& den hunns & i got into a longggg cnvrsatn. i'll summarise ok. im a bad gf. not e kind anybody wants to hv. seriously, i hv all e bad qualities. i dno how hunns can accept me. tolerate my nonsense & stil continue lovingg me. im thankful but thk abt hunns. haish.. im sorry. it must hv been hell for u e past 6 mths. i'll try to b a betta gf ok. *winks*

& its almost 3am now. i hv to wake up in 5 hrs? damn!

e one w happy times

2.40 am & im stil not aslp. buttcheek meoooowing away in e cage. wil take him out ltr bfore i go to slp.

i borrowed sop's charger. yeys! im alrd using bck my SE hp. thx soppy bro for e charger & yana babe for passg it to me.

i met hunns ystd & tdy. both days w a'an cuzzie arnd. its just sooo nice. slackg & reminiscing happy moments tgthr. its a superb feelg! talkg abt our first date 6 mths ago, our 1st movie, 1st time to ECP.. & manyy manyy more. althou we no longer spend time as much as bfore nor do we do crazee thgs anymo, im im content to b near hunns. our longg ride in bus 61. hahas. kn ahbee!

not gg to spend e wkends w hunns cos he's gg to work. hmph. i'll survive. so xpect me at home tis wkend. but we r gg to go out tmr, aft sch. & we'll do all e crazeeee thgs agn. *lookg forward*

a video to share. i love lookg at it over & over agn. i love e way he winks. *melts* ouh yes. pause e music bfore playg e video. if not it'll b veryyyy irritatg.

e one w gettg hurt

it feels like millions of tiny nails piercing thru my heart.
so hurt. so painful.

truth // lies
honesty // deception
promises // empty
im // gone

ive been cryg. evrytime bfore i go to slp. ahbee. save me.

tel me, wat is love..?

e one w MY heart

never xpect evythg to turn out e way u want it to b. never put on high hopes on anythg. anythg at all. just play along. wateva u do, play it smart. & never never rely upon pple to gv u bck e same treatment u gv dem. u will end up w nothing. oh no wait, actually ders plenty of thg u will feel; crushed, desolate, grief-stricken, grieved, heart-sick, heartbroken, heartsore, miserable, mournful, sorrowful. der!

nyeaaahh! whuteva!

anws, thx hunns for e wkend. i love it. e time spend tgthr was filled w joy & laughter. but as i always say, gd thgs come to an end. so, yes.

to naz & sop brudder. thx for dinner & ice-cream. i had fun. thx for listeng to my frets & fuss. i appreciate it veryy much.

for my mates who filled my sch days w laughters & gossip, im thankful. ur presence matters to me. & to those who doesnt, im blessed enuf. cos one way or another, it concerns me.

dno wat im blabbering abt. im simply hurt.

e one w POM

& i stil feel shitty. im havg diarrhoea. due to all e mee sotos i ate in sch! & also e yong tau foo! (is it e rite spellg?) bleargh! saket hati, saket perot! im supposed to meet yana babe to take my SE charger. borrow frm her workplc. but i lazee la can?

thgs is stil e same.. no chg. im stupid, wat to do. do stupid mistakeS. cant blame me. im not smart, not perfect. ouh wth. no one is! manyy thx to leah & wanee for accompanyg my aftnn. e chat was enuf. rite rizawanee? lols. u stil top my list of lameshit fren!

hows Yoga services for workg women? we bring u e servise since u r sooo bz w work & hardly hv e time to keep ur body in shape. anyone interested? & for those who r married, we can cater for ur child also. hahas. confused? hahas. wish me luck!

i need u. tell me abt loneliness.

e one w lying

i saw an old fren. he said i look sick. yes, i agree. im sick. heart pain to b exact. bleargh!

i feel stupid, unappreciated, naive, meaningless, vulnerable & @#$%^!!!!
thxx eh!

e shift key is spoilt!! irritatg ok!

e one w not-so-well situations

i cant slp. i woke up at 5.50! decided to wake up, bath & den do my morng prayers. feel so refreshg but cnfrm ltr in clas ngantok. lucky sch ends at 12 tdy. mayb fid meetg us & soon i hv to wake-up call mel. proj grps hv been formed for POM. im w bika, jess, helen & xiu zhen. *bigg smiles*

hahas.. thgs hasnt been so well btwn me & hunns. no doubt i stil love him. but we hv our differences. so i cant xpect evrythg to go PERFECT. (can u believe tis? ainee is bein soo positv!)

anws, thgs hasnt been e best at home too. yea, yea, my fault but., dno laaaaa..! & acheek, e past few days, i dno y but he has been followg me. evrywhr i go; toilet, kitchen, my room, balcony. & he even greet me gdbye evrytime i go to sch! & if im in e toilet or i close my door room, he'll meeeeoow for help. tts blardy cute ok!

i feel special. lols! mayb bcos during e hols ive been playg & spendg alot of time w him. & now as im blogging, he's sittg rite here on my bed lickg his body away. i love my buttcheek ok. m veryy glad tt i took him 9 mths ago. w oma's patience & all e family TLC, he has grown up to b a veryy cute, smart & irritatg-at-times cat!

im feelg alot of shitty emotion. y do all gd thgs come to an end?

e one w smokg

im supposed to b slpg i noe. sch starts at 9 tmr. anws, meli belli may b comg to sch tmr. lookg fwd to meet her. so, 2nd day of sch was fun. 2hrs of lesson & more luffs w hafiz pak-eh & fadh hubby! went home & zZzZz.. blardy ngantok.

i was feelg kinda low tdy. i dno y. i msgd hunns but he din rply. klua sch, col him den mengamok. i shd ustd actually tt he's bz w sch. but he was being so sweeet. he msgd me nicely, persuade me to go home & den meet up in e evening aft he finish sch. was supposed to meet kakyan but i postponed it to thurs. hee..

one stuuuupid thg hunns did -- he put e lightd cigarette on his hand. it was burnt la. y? bcos i start smokg agn. he's angry cos we made e deal. his way of helpg me stop is by scarrg his hand whenever i smoke. i shd go aaaww la but seeing him in pain is not wat i want. i cried alot just now. seriously, no guy had ever done tt for me.

so i promised agn tt i wont smoke. nvmla.. rather quit smokg den seeing boyfie like tt. anws, look fwd to spendg e Sat w hunns. we hv e whole day planned alrd. yaybedaabedoo!! im sooo gonna hv fun! gdnite!

i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u. i love u.

e one w sch

by e title, u noe sch has startd. *triple yey-ness!* glad laa.. can meet frens & luff, luff, luff! i will try my best to come sch evryday. InsyaAllah. im got e tourism elective. & some otha new subjs - principles of marketg(POM), office administratn(OA) & another i cdnt rmbr. so sch was ok. missg cassie's & fidris' presence. her to MI & him to NP. i wish i was in NP, den i can meet hunns evry single day!

i was alrd all set to go to sch by 10.45 wen sch starts at 12! enthu la ok! yet, i rchd sch late just now. dno y also. cant believe my new time-table. s&w at 4-5.30. bleargh. mon my longest day. e rest oookie la. acceptable.

aft sch, i met hunns! yiippiedoodledoo! we wont c each otha as much so we hv to spend as much time w each otha wen we're free. both of us gg to b bz w sch & i decide to work part-time (he suggestd it also). hmph.. so yea.

hunns fetch me frm sch! yiippledoodledeyss! den off to causeway cos hunns had to repair his lappy. he had no mood cos accordg to him, his lappy = his life. rch der, e salesperson say call a tis hotline to ask for guides. e more he binget. & wen we calld, e office da tutop. pity boyfie. he needs his lappy for sch. cnfrm now, he stress.

den off to Sun Plaza. wanted to watch The Number 23 but its at 9. im a gd girl now so must rch home early. so we watchd 300. at last laa! it was niceeeeeeeeeeee! but veryy gory. can vomit. me & hunns look fwd to share reviews w yana babe & khairul. but.. thgs chg now. sad la cans. talk abt yana babe, i miss u neneh! promise we'll meet up soon!

i told hunns, start e new sem, we gg to do well & achieve our dreams tgthr. which is - wen he's in yr 3, i'll b in yr 1. den wen he finish NS, i finish my poly. den we'll take our degree tgthr. a biz woman & a scientist. coolios! *AMIN*

im e kind of gf who is veryy demandg. i want smthg but i dun want to say. instd, i will just blow my top wen i dun get e thgs i want. &&, i get angry over no apparent reason. yes, tts ainee in a rltnshp. veryy imature horr. nyeah! whutevaaa..!

e one w LOVE?

here's smthg to share. hunns wrote tis poem for me on Valentines' Day.

Is it really love?
Or is it a passing feeling
Am I not convinced?
A bit uncertain of the feeling

Is it the way you make me feel?
So warm with joy and laughter
Or could it be the happiness
From moments spent together

The lasting bliss, the kiss i miss,
The sweetest thoughts without a touch
The heart that hurts and bears a scar
Thinking how far away you are

You're on my mind most of the day
And at night I go to bed and pray
An angel soft and gentle as you
Would make my sweetest dream come true

Thinking about you alone or in class
Writing your name on my bathroom window glass
Wishing you were here
To love, hold and care
Wishing I had u with me
To cherish and to stare

Into your soft and beautiful eyes
As we both travel to the skies
And mingle with the stars above
But is this really love?

*smiles bigg*
i rmbr e time he read me tis poem.
by e bay at Esplanade.
it was e most swtest moment.
we xchgd our Vday's gift.
i want to rewind tis day & encounter it over & over agn.
cans? like e story 50 First Dates gtu.

hais.. I LOVE MY MUHD SYAMIEL laa.
blardy love him.
yet i gues all gd thgs come to an end ehs?
nyeah. watevaaaa..

e one w Yana Babe

`late nites at ur crib - Karaoke, American Idol, The Dancefloor, Hikmah
`entertaing each othas nonsense at parties (& almost evrywhr else)
`american idols
`shesha sessions
`growg fat tgthr
`This Fashion, Banquet (discount card!)
`Pasar Malam
`Lau Pa Sat; slackg at Merlion singing our hearts out
`Taka; truth or dare
`Hyatt Biz Centre
`Far East; Ban Mian
`BPP's Mac
`Packs of Sampoerna
`Cam-whoring
`dismantling ur papa's DVD player
`MOS & O Bar
`poker cards
`Thai Express
...& all otha thgs i cdnt rmbr.

babe, u r truly a darling. i will miss u. thx for brighteng up my days. filling it up w laughters & u lame jokes. lols. u made e past few mths extravagant. all e hapi moments stated above i wil cherish. & i hope it doesnt end der oookie! i wil try to b der wen u need me. make sure u do e same for me ok.

agn, im reli glad we gav tis frenshp a chance. 7 yrs & stil a longgg way to go ehs? i heart u la Nur Liyana. certainly, beyond doubt, e BEST.

& yea.. well wishes for u & yan. i hope e greatest for u two. b happy!

done. i dun want to start cryg agn.

e one w NO time

i met hunns ystd. yeys! wanted to meet yana babe but she was aslp! so i went to bpnjg, all dressed up. i wanted to go out. he tot we were only slackg so he wore apape ntah.. dno y but he was awkward at first. like, funny la. malu dgn gf sndri? *scoffs*

we had dinner at gr mall's Banquet. i ate Laksa. best! & den, we slack. it was nice. absence do make e heart grow fonder eh! we din quarrel. all we did was luff, luff & more luff. i was hyper, i dno y also. we head home at arnd 1130. althou it was a short meet up, i had fun la hunns. thankiuuu.. ((=

so holiday inn calld just now, askd if i wantd to work. but i had plans w hunns to meet aft he finish work at Jrg Point den go bck to yana babe's crib to slack. so, im wonderg, if i want to go to work or to spend time w my darlings. ummm.. we'll c. hahas.

bcos yana babe's bf is coming home soooon, we hv to make use of his absence to reli spend time. & as for hunns & myself, we hv only a wk left bfore sch starts. its his 2nd yr & he cant slack. cis! not tt i can, but mine is more flexible.

done. gonna bath. & im stil soooooooooo tired aft e trip!

e one w holiday part 2

the pics not in order. more than 300 pics. tts y i put it ike tt. ouh yea, oma joined too. more stories ltr la ok.

njoy e pics! ((=

e one w holiday

yeys im gg to Genting Highlands & KL!! but booohooo im gg to miss my hunns, yana babe & of course my buttcheek babyy. met hunns just now. not gg to meet him for 5 days. til Sun i thk. gg w kakyan.

so went Jrg Point w hunns, yana babe & khairul. ate at Banquet & used my discount card for e 1st time. heyy! i was xcited ok eventhou it was only 10%. (babi ko yana!) we den head to bpnjg to slack der. lookg at his face for a few hrs hapi enuf, havg to hug & smell his masam-ness. hee.. sick i noe but i loike. &&, yeys! agn cos i took his jacket home w me. so i'll feel closer to him. (cheyy.. swt la tu kira) of course im gg to bring it wen i go Msia.

hais.. miss me ok pple. i will miss u too. well, i m missg alot of pple actually. but wth. e only ones who were truly der were hunns & yana babe. pffft!

**to abykucyg, pls hv enuf rest. ure sick. & pls behave wen im not arnd. i will miss u like crazeeee..! dun overwork urself. ure not a robot. i love u!
*to yana looove, pls take gd care of urself. make sure wen i return ure stil e same. pls b hapi wen ur bf returns. i wish u all e best bebeh. i love u too!

e one w Aprils' Fool

buttcheek was on my bed wen i returned home tis morng. sunggoh steady & relek. siap dgn selimut & bantal. too pampered la him. but wateva, he's e darling.

i slpt like nobody's busines tdy. almost 12 hrs. no, i din go boogie. spend e wkend w hunns & his frens. i had funnn. n of course i was made a fool by kang & a new fren, mumu. of course dey were little fites. but we kiss & make up. just sittg by e bay, njoyg each othas company was enuf for me. u noe how gals r sooo easily content. yea, im like tt.

im gg to welcome april w a whole new perspective. im gg to b a more reasonable & ustdg gf. haha. n of course, a better daughter, sister, fren & student. i askd hunns to name all our gd & bad moments. i 1st came out w e time at Lot 1 whr he had to go for tis meetg but at e same time cdnt bear to leave me. tt moment reli made me feel appreciated. like, special sgttt. he paused wen he was abt to mentioned e bad moments. tknk la kn bbual psl benda yg buat kita mrh.. so we stick to hapi moments. my 1st time seeing him at Furama. how i hate guys who wear coloured lens but i drool wen i c his eyes. our ECP sessions. hahas. both agreed tt we nv tot we'll b tgthr. cos he's cous' fren & lots of otha rsns. come to thk of it, im hapi. very hapi.

n yea i shdnt gv up wen times were bad. cos i wont noe mayb in e future we'll hv smthg special tgthr? & stupid me din make tt happend. i wish to xperience more hapi moments w him tgthr. & we'll spend e most-est time we can w each otha. its gg to b difficult i noe. cos he's workg mon-fri now, 12 hrs & schs startg sooooon. he'll hv 8-5 lessons. which means no time for me. but i'll try to b e most ustdg gf & wont mengamok at evry little thg. insya-Allah.

abykucyggg. i want go Escape! hahas. (so much for tryg to b ustdg, more like im demandg now) hee. lovingg & missingg u 24/7!