e one with one-sided

didnt g0 t0 sch just n0w. cdnt if i want t0. w my puffy eyes. cried e wh0le m0rning. cdnt slp. managed t0 only arnd 0700. wen i g0t up, it was alrd 1030. sch ends at 1300 tdy. i inf0rmed efa.

it has been smtime since i last cry like crazee. its amie. its n0t his fault. he did nthg wr0ng. nthg wr0ng at all. its reli his pr0b if he wants t0 t0k abt his ex gf. he said tis -- "nk dia balek b0le?" h0w e hell m i supp0se t0 feel? he t0k abt al0tt of otha stufs abt HER.. i kept mum n said nthg.

i t0ld him i gv up on him. wish him gdluck on gettg back w his ex gf. n l0ads of otha shitty stufs. i dun want t0 get myself hurt. i heart him. al0t. but its betta t0 back off n0w. it'll hurt m0re if i carry on. he said ders nthg he can abt it if i want thgs t0 b tis way. all e m0re reas0ns y i shd gv up rite? he d0esnt care. n0t e least bit.

i h0pe t0 get over tis so0n. im carryg a veryyy heavy weight in my heart. cant bear t0 l0se sm0ne s0o speacial. i feel l0st. its reli affectg me al0t. he was online. yet he didnt even t0k t0 me. i was e one t0 nudge him 1st. is it my fault? he cdnt b b0thered. eurghh..!!!!!!!

im cleang up my hse. d0 anythg t0 keep me occupied. t0 keep me away fr0m my hp. t0 n0t msg him. i'll keep a distance. will try t0 f0rget abt him. it's g0nna b difficult. but i hv t0 d0 it. t0 n0t get myself hurt. im gg thru tis all over agn. ya Allah.

**ayy suga! let tis b e last. 0k ainee? n0 m0re l0ve matters. until u r of e rite age. finish sch, d0 ur best. make ur family pr0ud. w0rk, c0llect l0ads n l0ads of $$, den u g0 all out. on tis stuuupid shitty l0ve thg. wen ure mature, wiser. mayb u'll thk pr0perly. n0w, all u d0 is t0 study!

i need my sunshine! lit me up.

e one with e msg

sch was ok. g0t sc0lded by sally ng. hahas. funny. efa n m0i was slpg. i paid attenti0n but at e same time i surf e net. she taught biz comm. we learnt h0w to write letters just n0w.

tried n0t t0 msg amie e wh0le day. just cant. msg him otw back h0me fr0m sch. he did rply. msg him agn wen its magrib. asked him t0 wake up. he rplies "ye syg. aru bgn nie. *yawns.*" just like tt. yet im s0o hapi. den i fell aslp. f0r a while. n0w he's at his fren's crib. cutting his hair. i miss him.

kakda said she b0ught ljs fish f0r me. s0o nice. ders mee s0to als0. 0uh yea. 0ma n kakyan went t0 jhr. sh0ppg agn i gues. s0o nice. i wud tag al0ng if i hv n0 sch. n dey r stil n0t back yet.

waitg f0r time f0r beckyy n jakpeng t0 rch cck. lepak f0r a while. hv sch tmr. meetg tt d0gg f0r my receipts. at last.

n f0r j0han. w0w! u managed t0 find my bl0g. n im s0ri ayy.

k, tts all f0r n0w. sch starts at no0n tmr. s0o nice. i heartt my gfs. my babes. my darlas. buttcheek. family. n amie. =))

r0s!! i miss u l0ads. n my lydia babyy.

e one with entreprenuershp

cudnt slp. hate amie. he did nthg wr0ng actually. its just me. always me. u guys must b w0ndering wh0 amie is. if only i cud tell, i will. tell u h0w pr0ud i m t0 b liked by s0me0ne like him. haha. n h0w eager i m t0 return his liking. euurrgh. i feel tt he's drifting. we t0k abt matters of e heart just n0w. he refused t0 n didnt rply my msg. but of c0urse aft which he said s0ri. i just dun ustd him. i hate t0 b given false h0pes. im n0t h0ping, m i? but his w0rds, e way he treat me.. just cant resist. mayb tis is wat dey call karma. i once did tis t0 tt d0gg. but i wasnt as cruel. rite?

enuf abt him. sch was nice! i heartt my frens. i hate c0s i g0t ETP. enterprenuership shit! n0 exams but pr0jects? hell n0! mr th0ng is our m0dule lecturer f0r tt subj. meet my new teachers, my new subjs. ders PIE, EVM n othas i cant recall. n s0 we intend t0 g0 out t0 IMM f0r awhile n den head back t0 sch. yea rite! ders me, m0i, efa, wanie, wanee, nisah. haha. m0i n efa went back t0 my hse t0 watch dvds. e rest went back. i dn0 abt my otha clasmates. haha. i hvnt eat e wh0le day. smthgs tr0ubling me. i dn0 wat exactly. cant get it off my chest. lo0kg fwd t0 sch tmr! hee..

0uh ya! i alm0st f0rg0t! nisah came t0 me out of a sudden n p0p out tis qn -- "ainee, kau ada adk sedara name nasrie eh?" haha. nasrie g0t t0 n0e nisah thru his fren, ayie. i was sh0cked. reli sh0cked. suchhh a small w0rld ayy? hv t0 disturb him. haha.

"g0 all out. dun gv up."
i live by tis qu0te.

e one with geylang

at last! i get t0 meet my guurls. efa was late! m0i fr0m w0rk. lala n zul frm smwhr. i wanted t0 eat ban mian. but m0st of e tables at far east were bo0ked. s0 last res0rt, mcd0nalds at lid0. didnt eat much. wasnt fastg anw. audi0 came abit ltr. den kak nana. n den we head t0 geylang.

we r stil as kec0h. i simply had a great luff. as always, we g0ssip n0n-st0p. abt e pple we n0e, n th0se we dun. to0k bus 7 t0 geylang. piee msg. said he was at t0wn n was b0red w apek n halis. s0, he j0in us. audi0 wanted t0 find kain samping. at least ders a purp0se gg t0 geylang. haha. pathetic. n yey! i get t0 eat my fried fresh prawns. yummy!

saw hadis. he lo0k different. mayb its e hair. tired, we head h0me. m0i carried on w her aunties n c0usins.

yea, t0k t0 amie earlier in e m0rning. t0ld him h0w sad i was n evrythg. he said it was over. he f0rg0t abt wateva happened. n said he'll treat me real nice. c0s im his gf. i dun ustd actually. just g0 w e fl0w. he passed his the0ry. h0pe evrythg g0es sm0oth f0r him n he'll pass so0n. insya-Allah. Amin. planned t0 meet. lepak tgthr. but due t0 s0me0ne we cant. sighs. dn0 h0w l0ng tis thg will g0 on.

can i say i heartt him? is it t0o so0n? i dn0. he's just s0o nice yet.. ya Allah. i dn0. im thankful im over tt d0gg. but i dun wanna g0 thru tis all over agn. it hurts. s0o much.

*help*

sch start in few hrs time.

e one with letting go

listening t0 hurt by christina aguilera. n tanpa kekasihku by agnes monica. these 2 songs hv been playg in my head. currently, im hurt n w/o my l0ver.

l0ver? haha. wh0?

amie chg. al0t. he's stil angry w me. f0r smthg i did. it wasnt on purp0se. its just a j0ke. im twisting my w0rds, my st0ries. its in e bl0od. cant b blame. hee..

k, seri0usly.. he's different. my amie has chg. y d0 tis happen? evrytime! evry single time. its betta tis way. im n0t hurtg n0 one. n0 one but myself.

he did msg me just n0w. asked y didnt he rply me. reas0n being, he f0rg0t t0 bring his hp e wh0le day ystd. i dn0 if its true. i dun want t0 qn him. in n0 p0siti0n t0 d0 tt.

i just wish i cud read his mind. s0 i n0e wat he's thkg. of me? or sm0ne else? he's at j0h0r n0w. waitg f0r his call. or msg at least. i figure, we need t0 t0k.

meetg my fafa, m0i n lala tdy f0r buka. at last! but n0 fun ah. c0s im "dirrty". s0 e spirit of puasa abit l0w. nvm. stil i get t0 meet my ladies.

i need laughters rite n0w. tts all.

e one with vivo city

finally. nthg t0 d0. went t0 vivo city just n0w. w j0han. an old chattg pal. but aft m0nths, we met c0s he's back in sp0re. aft 3 yrs in aussie, sydney. he to0k degree in rec0rding arts. co0l ehs? he drives a chevr0let. co0ler ehs? haha. he's only 20. he has gr0wn fatter i gues. c0mpared t0 e pics. went t0 penin. he wants t0 buy a guitar. didnt get any cos he one he wants wasnt sold der.

den t0 viv0 city. i was reli amazed by e plc. f**kg bigg! e biggest sh0ppg ctr in sp0re i heard. m0st of e sh0ps n0t open yet. grand opening is on 1 Dec. c0me d0wn yea. b sure t0 sp0t me der! haha. n dey hv ben & jerrys! we didnt cover e whole shoppg ctr. we did get l0st on our way t0 e carpark. haha. n yea. e sea view. shd get on e 3rd flo0r. its a chill plc. can even c e merlion from e shoppg ctr. damn co0l la e plc. i hearttt it s0o much. lucky its far. else i wud hang out der alm0st evry single day.

but e sh0ps der r m0stly f0r rich kids. t0o bad. wait til i marry dat0k K's s0n ok?

we rush h0me c0s i hv t0 b back b4 buka. emba's al0ne at h0me. we chatted in e car. cdnt rmbr which part. but i f0und out he lives in a 3 st0rey bungalow near jln bahar der. n0e e ibrahim fr0m e infotainment sh0w called Jalan? e one wh0 rides e red vespa? tts his uncle. n isadora, e DJ, his auntie. n0 w0nder e car. i s0und cheap dun i? its fun being fren w sm0ne wh0 n0es all tis pple. but tt d0esnt mean anythg bad rite?

i dn0. i miss amie. s0o much.

e one with stupid me

i f0ught w amie! s0me stuupid pple. just dun ustd y. dey dn0 went t0 st0p messing w pples life. i like him. i d0. veryy much.

im l0sing him. i dun want t0. he's missing. didnt msg, didnt col. is it my fault?

im s0 naive. easily attracted. i dun wish f0r all these t0 happen. pls dun take him away. im saying tis -- i like amie. i cud even love him.

but i hv t0 thk abt otha pple. pple wh0 r veryy dear t0 me. i w0nt want t0 hurt s0me0ne's feelgs just t0 make me happy.

ya Allah. help.

e one with K610i

yey!! new hp. n0t N73. its s0ny ericss0n k610i. in white. i l0ike.. budget. veryy budget. my 1st SE hp. it has always been n0kia. sighs.

t0t i'll save up s0mem0re t0 get e N series. but ap0ng wanted his hp back. s0 i needed t0 get myself one. just 200 bux away. 0ma s0o cruel. didnt want t0 lend me. hmphh!

went w fifi just n0w. 0h yea. meet my new cck fren. fifi. hee. e one n only gf i hv here. cool kn! e rest r either in bpnjg or jrg west. i heart her! she's a nice gal. veryy s0ft sp0ken. we went t0 l0t 1. but e red versi0n was s0ld out. s0 we went t0 bpnjg plaza. n0 red als0. but im f0nd of e white one. n reli in need of hp. s0 y n0t.

i'll take al0tt of pics! s0ngs n videos. =))

e one with first date

at last. my rest day is here! s0o tired w0rking. i w0rked 17 hrs on sat. den i n r0s met piee, apek n pele at w00dlands. ja wanted t0 club. but n0ne f0ll0wed. its been a l0ng time since i last my piee. he is stil as cute. w0rk was like fuck! i dun like! i was t0o tired. served 2 wedding tt day. n e guest.. wahlau! chee wee said he wanted t0 make me n r0s VIP servers. n he'll b lo0king at me. i was s0o pressured by tt. haha. i cried. reli cant tahan.

rch h0me at abt 0730. was very slpy. met amie. he pr0mised t0 treat me Swensens. c0s he buey me twice. we break fast at far east. i ordered claypot chicken. he was s0o cute! veryy childish. but entertaining. i was veryy shy at first. yet he did evrythg t0 make me t0k. i dun like his fashi0n sense th0u. w0nder wat he thk of me. hee..

aft buka puasa, we head t0 cineleisure. watched stay alive at 2115 sh0w. nice! superb ah. very scary. shd watch! th0u i dun like e ending. haha. e m0vie ended near midnite.

since he pr0mised, we den went t0 swensens. i ordered banana spilt. funny c0s i hate bananas. ate only e ice cream. he ordered sticky chewy ch0co. we had a nice time. j0king n laughing. i just cant st0p lo0kg at his eyes. *cair* alth0u i hate guys wh0 wear c0loured c0ntacts. haha. we walked t0 n0whr. gg h0me c0s he wants t0 g0 Joh0r w his fren. we to0k taxi h0me.

cudnt st0p thkg abt him n0w. but dey r t0o many restricti0ns. its t0o c0mplicated. i d0 want tis t0 g0 smwhr. g0sh. i thk ive fallen f0r him! eurghh.